Scum

So, it turns out that I've made a new enemy, somehow. The other day, I went outside to get in my car, and all of my garbage was strewn about in the front seat of my car. Then, last night my wife looks outside and the dome light in my car is on (I never leave this light on). Normally, I don't lock my piece of shit car, because I see no reason to considering it's 13 years old and has 192,000 miles on it. But I must say, being fucked with makes me furious beyond words.

I just don't get it. I am honestly one of the nicest dudes on this planet. I am kind to everyone. I turn the other cheek at almost every turn, because I hate conflict. I know what I am capable of, and I know that if I were to unleash what I have inside at any given moment that I would lose everything. I have so many enemies, though, from doing the "right" thing. I couldn't even name them all off. I guess going against the grain and making the tough choices really screws over those people that make bad ones, or maybe they're just pissed at the successes I've made...

In the end, I don't care about the rationale behind any trespass against me. I just want revenge. Once I become bitten by the bug, I can't let it go. I honestly feel sorry for the next person that crosses me. I am ready to kill at this point, and there's not a person alive that can stop me. I won't be defeated. You can lock me up, but you'll just create a bigger monster. What people don't get is, you can hurt me today, but it doesn't end there. I'll kill your entire fucking family. I will cut your fucking first born's head off and rape your fucking wife right in front of you...and then when you think it's over, I'll cut your balls off and feed them to you. And then when you beg for me to kill you, the real pain will begin. Someone who "knows" me is reading this and thinking "no way, Erik is not capable of such butchery". Oh really? I dare you. I fucking dare you.

I just read about an armed robbery on the south side last night...Three robbers wearing shitty Halloween masks broke into a church BINGO HALL and robbed the patrons there...I can't tell you how pissed this makes me. What kind of FUCKING SCUM would do such a thing to what likely amounts to SENIOR CITIZENS? These people will never feel safe where they are, and these little punk bitches will strike again.

This city is becoming a complete hive of scum and villainy. I can't understand why people are so against vigilantism. I'll tell you what, if it were me, 100 against three with only one handgun...if I could carry a piece in there, it would've went like this: robber with the gun walks in. I reach for my piece...BLAM, he's dead. His two compatriots stand there with pee running down their legs wondering who had the nerve to stand up to them. Then, the gun is pointed at them. "OK, you have exactly two choices: drop your weapons, turn around, and take your pussy asses out of here...or, get on your knees and eat lead. You have three seconds to decide." Any guff from that point on would be met with the business end of my revolver.

Could it go another way? Sure. But someone needs to send a message to these motherfuckers...this city is overrun with gangs and thugs and drugs and prostitutes...it's sickening. It's all one big criminal enterprise. They don't fear the police. Why should they? The criminal justice system is set up to "understand" criminals. I don't care to understand. Anyone who would pull a gun on someone just to get what probably amounted to $50 does not value human life, and should not be allowed to walk freely and risk harming someone that doesn't deserve it. They should be eradicated. If we started publicly executing some of these fucks, and made concealed carry legal, I guarantee you that the crime rate would plummet. I don't care if you think it's barbaric. People have no fucking accountability anymore, because there are no consequences. Jail isn't shit, it's just a vacation for criminals...they can go hang out with their kind there and think up new ways to hurt the rest of us. Your society has created a haven for these people, and you wonder why they don't fear or respect you. Unbelievable.

This is in part why I had to leave my old job...getting threatened on a daily basis by pedophiles, wife beaters, thugs, drug addicts...people with NO BUSINESS saying anything cross to me...and being unable to respond or do anything about it except feed some hippie Liberal bullshit at them...it's too much. I dealt with it before with one man, who I will someday see dead, and that was too much. I've had to deal with those scum on a daily basis, and it was becoming too hard to keep it in. I almost blew everything back in August 2007, during a meeting with that scumbag...it took every ounce of me not to break his fucking neck right there. At least where I'm at now, I can tune all that out...All these feelings lay waiting inside me. Someday they'll be unleashed, and it won't be pretty. Those who deserve to be spared, will be. Those who do not will meet the most gruesome end that I can deliver.

OK...I need to take a step back and breathe for a sec...I think it's time to drown my rage in some electronics. Later.